Its not the same Me anymore..

'You probably don't need me anymore, that's the reason you never call'
He fumed with anger, as i nodded calmly at the other end. I kept silent. I Didn't know if it was true. If it was.. Was i wrong?
I hung up.

There was a time when all these things mattered to me. When i was with G, he was my world. The late night calls, the long stemmed roses, the surprise visits...in short, all  the fimly stuff mattered to me.But then at one point of time i started questioning 'what lasts forever?'

Through all those upheavels and my search for constancy and stability, i realized one thing. I was probably wasting the best years of my life harboring negativity and skepticism.Trying to seek pleasure from fulfilled expectations,i forgot what joy was all about. Its not worth trying to seek joy in transient relationships or surreal things. The pleasure derived from it, is just as temporary as illusion is.
I am no longer as fearful as i was. I am no longer scared to give love. I am not ashamed of my scars. I accept them.

Somewhere...i have stopped searching. In my own little world with..work ,hope, dreams, music and books i feel complete.I count my blessings, I remain thankful for the most amazing friends, I see my ambitions taking form, I seek solace in visiting the ashram and I am grateful for all those little things.....I am contended.

So now the princess doesn't need a prince to complete here. She just needs him to compliment her.